I LOVE THANKSGIVING, TRADITIONS, BEING WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE. CAPTURING ALL OF THE FEELINGS OF CONTENT. I THINK IT IS A FEELING THAT WE DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND, AND SIMILAR TO HUNGER, IN THIS DAY AND AGE WE DO NOT SIT AND FEEL. I HOPE FOR EVERYONE THAT COMPLETE FEELING OF CONTENT. BE STILL, BE SOFT, BE RECEPTIVE.
I THINK OUR CHILDHOOD ROOM HAS A LOT OF BARING ON WHAT HAPPENS TO US AESTHICALLY AS ADULTS. IF WE ARE ALLOWED TO DESIGN AND DREAM IN OUR OWN ROOMS WE FEEL CONFIDENT IN OUR DECISIONS AS WE MATURE, NOT TO CARE ABOUT TRENDS OR "IN" COLORS. I HAVE ALWAYS ENCOURAGED MY CHILDREN TO EXPRESS THEMSELVES IN THEIR ENVIRONMENTS, NOT ALWAYS MY TASTE, BUT THE DOOR CLOSES. I BET I'M NOT THE ONLY MOTHER THAT DOES THIS. AS A CHILD I HAD A BEDROOM SET MY FATHER ASSEMBLED FROM A KIT THAT SEARS SOLD. I REMEMBER THAT IT WAS HIS FIRST "DO IT YOURSELF" PROJECT, HE HAD PIECES LEFT OVER, SHIPPED THE WHOLE THING BACK. THE NEXT KIT CAME AND HE READ THE DIRECTIONS. APPARENTLY IT'S UNAMERICAN TO USE THE DIRECTIONS. I MISS HIM. HE MADE MY WHOLE SET, WE STAINED IT AND IT BEGAN LIFE AS A CANOPY BED AND IN THE DAVID CASSIDY YEARS IT WAS SAWED OFF AND LOOKED MORE LIKE A SPOOL BED. I HAD HIDEOUS WALLPAPER I ONE EVOLUTION. BRIGHT YELLOW WALLS, I REMEMBER WANTING A BEER CAN COFFEE TABLE WITH A SWINGING BED, THOUGH DURING THOSE YEARS I NEEDED ONE FOOT ON THE GROUND SOME NIGHTS. THERE WAS THE POSTER CRAZE, THE DOOLHOUSE ROOM, THE NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC PHASE, THE CLOTHES HORSE CLOSET ROOM...I EVOLVED INTO AN INTERIOR DESIGNER FROM THE MASS MOVING, MELDING, MOMENTIS, MOM THAT I BECAME...
IT'S BEEN AN INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL MONTH FOR ME. MY TENANT SKIPPED OUT AND BEGAN LITIGATION FOR SPACE THOUGHT OWED. I HAVE LEARNED IN THE PROCESS THAT I MUST ATTACH MY WORDS, NOT FORCEFULLY, BUT QUICKLY...I AM NOW RECOVERING, AND I HAVE BEEN ENJOYING VIGNETTES INTO MY FUTURE WORLD BY COMPLETING MY OWN PATH. THAT SAID, IT IS A ROCKY ONE...MY SELF CONFIDENCE AND WORTH ARE WAINING, AND TRYING TO ESTABLISH A KIND OF COURSE TO BECOME WHO I SHOULD BE IS PAINFUL. IT REQUIRES BOTH A MAGNIFYING GLASS AND A HUG...NEITHER OF WHICH IS IN LARGE SUPPLY. I LOVE WHO I LOVE BUT I HAVE DECIDED THAT I CAN NO LONGER BE THE SUGGESTION BOX FOR MY PACK. I NEED TO BEGIN A NEW PATH BASED ON GETTING ME IN A NEW DIRECTION. I'D LIKE TO MAKE MY SHOP MORE LIKE A VANITY GALLERY AND WORKSHOP, IT WOULD ENCOURAGE ME TO NOT ONLY MAKE MY ART, BUT OFFER CLASSES AND SELL MY ART AND ART MATERIALS. I AM GOING TO REALLY BEGIN TO SEE BEING AN ARTIST AS A MEANS, I'D LIKE TO MAKE MY WAY THIS LAST SEGMENT OF MY LIFE AS CLOSE TO WHO I AM AS I CAN BE. I'M DONE HIDING, EVEN OTHER ARTIST BELIEVE THERE IS SOMETHING CREATIVE WITHIN MY SOUL, NOW I NEED TO SEE AND UNDERSTAND IT AS WELL. I HEARD SOMETHING INTERESTING RECENTLY, IT IS NOT HAPPINESS FOUND IN THE JOURNEY, IT IS THE JOURNEY FOUND IN THE HAPPINESS. IN OTHER WORDS, BORN OF...NOT CAPTURED. I LOVE THAT, ATTITUDE, WE ARE ALL CAPABLE OF CHANGING IT. I AM ON A NEW COURSE, I'LL SHAKE A FEW TREES, BEGIN A NEW PATH. I AM PSYCHED. READY FOR FOREVER TO BEGIN.
SO THE THINGS THAT WE LEARN ABOUT OURSELVES ARE THINGS LEARNED THROUGH THE ARTS. WE COOPERATE, WE LEARN CRITICAL THINKING, CREATIVE SOLUTIONS, TAKE CRITISM, LOTS AND LOTS OF LESSONS. ART COMPLETLY ALLOWS US TO BECOME. WE SEARCH, WE FIND. I LOVE ART, ALL OF US HAVE THE POTENTIAL FOR FEELINGS, THEY NEED TO COME OUT. LIVE AND LOVE, EXPRESS FREELY. DO IT LIKE NO ONE IS LOOKING. ENJOY THE PROCESS. DON'T OVERTHINK IT. JUST ENJOY.
