PUSHING 'TILL I CAN'T

IT HAS BEEN SUCH A TRYING TIME.  MY PATIENCE HAS BEEN SO TAXED.  I AM TRYING TO GET MY ACT TOGETHER,  I HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT HOW TO MAKE SOME SERIOUS MONEY.   I NEED TO MAKE MY FOOTPRINT SMALLER AT MY SHOP.   I WANT TO MOVE TOWARD PERHAPS A THREE SEASON BARN SHOP PLUS A MARKET ONCE A MONTH TO START.   I NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHETHER OR NOT TO HAVE THE WHOLE SPACE TAKEN OVER,  OR JUST A HALF.   I NEED SOMEONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO GRACEFULLY MAKE N ME BOW OUT.  THEN I HAVE A GOOD DAY AT THE SHOP.   IF WE ARE ALWAYS DISAPPOINTED, WE CAN NEVER MOVE FORWARDS.   I NEED TO STEP BACK AND SEE WHAT ALL I HAVE DONE. REALIZE MY POTENTIAL.   REALIZE WHAT MY PLACE IS IN THE WORLD.  IT'S NOT FOR ME TOO SAY... REALLY.   I NEED TO FOCUS ON THE THINGS THAT ARE RIGHT IN THE WORLD.  I SOUND LIKE A LOON WHEN I REALIZE WHAT I HAVE BEEN SAYING...LET GO AND LET GOD.  I KNOWS IT BUT I DON'T DO IT.  IF I EVER THINK I KNOWS BETTER THEN GOD, I AM REMINDED TIME AND AGAIN.   THE WORRY, THE STOMACH, THE THROAT, IT'S ALL RELATED.  I NEED TO LET GO.
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