LOVE THE LIFE YOU CHOOSE

I'M ALWAYS TRYING TO UNDERSTANDING THE MEANING OF LIFE.  I MEAN EXPRESSING THE REASON WHY WE ARE HERE.  I'M JUST TRUDGING THROUGH LIFE,  TRYING TO MAKE SURE THAT MY FAMILY IS SAFE, AND SECURE.  WHEN I THINK ABOUT THE WAY THINGS USED TO BE IT REMINDS ME THAT I AM NOT MOVING FORWARD.  HOW DO YOU DO THAT?  IT SEEMS TO BE ALL IN ATTITUDE.  SEE IT, BE IT, THIS IS MY TESTIMONIAL.  IF ONE PERSON LEARNS ABOUT HOW, TO MOVE FORWARD WITHOUT FEAR, I NEED TO GET A BRIEFING.  LOVING LIFE, AND UNDERSTANDING PEOPLE MAKES ME WANT TO CELEBRATE AND REVERE HUMANITY.  THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT WE ARE HUMAN IN HUMANITY...QUESTION ASKED, QUESTION ANSWERED. 

WE NEED SOME BREAKS

ALL OF THE SNOW WE HAVE EXPERIENCED HAS GOT ME TO THINKING, WHEN WILL IT ALL END?  I HAVE BEEN TRYING GET MY SHOP ORGANIZED AND THE BARN OPENED FOR 2015.  IT SEEMS TO BE STALLED BETWEEN LARGE SNOW FALLS, LACK OF CASH FLOW, AND PERHAPS MOTIVATION.  I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO TRYING TO GET THE BARN MARKET UNDERWAY, MY SHOP CLIPPING ALONG AGAIN.  I NEED MOTHER NATURE TO COOPERATE AND SOME LUCK.  IT SURE IS BEAUTIFUL, BUT I AM WORRIED ABOUT MY FUTURE.  I AM WONDERING HOW I AM GOING TO MAKE THIS ALL WORK.

DEAR GOD, WHY ARE WE HERE?

I AM AWAY FROM MY TRUTH.  I NEED TO MAKE DECISIONS ABOUT MY FUTURE, AND I AM SCARED.  I DON'T REALLY KNOW THE BUSINESS WORLD AND YET, HERE I AM.  I AM NOT APART OF THE ART THAT I CREATE BUT THAT IS WHERE MY HEART LIES.  I AN FILLED WITH LOVE BUT BEING A PARTNER OF A NARCISSIST WAS A WAY TO BEAT THE JOY FROM ME.  MADE TO FEEL UNNECESSARY AND UNWORTHY OF LOVE, I HAVE CRAWLED BACK INTO MY WEIGHT AND INSECURITIES.   WHENEVER I HAVE TRIED TO GLEEN MESSAGES FROM MY LIFE IT ALWAYS STARTS WITH LOVE.  I JUST HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME WITH THAT.  QUIETING MY MIND I STILL HAVE THE HARDEST TIME FIGURING OUT THE WHERE FOR AND WHY OF MY LIFE.   WITH GOD AT MY BACK I THINK I CAN STRUGGLE THROUGH THE DARKNESS, LONLINESS, AND VULNERABILITY.